I got this realization that the internet does not make me happy as I think it would always be. It does not have anything to do with the people but with me, my posts, my personality. Yes, it shows me, in a way. It shows my emotions, my style, my desires, but on the surface, how I want others to see me.. And I realized I don't want that. I want people to see me as I am. Is there someone in this planet that would still know me when I've been posting too many photos too vulgar (in a way that it's giving you this 'oh. they do that at that age?'? If there is, bless his/her soul, let him/her assure me that I am still me and how I used to be - or better.
This was just a reaction to people assuming I am like this and that. I may be like it from time to time, but don't put it to my face. Don't label. Do you know what's that for the ego? XD.
I might like the internet but but but.
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When I go home, I don't really go HOME, I go home to face the computer. And that's so sad. I'm missing a lot out of life by spending too much time on surfing, commenting, posting.. yea. So next time, I'll lessen my internet intake, it's not doing me real good.

It's random, I know. haha. Funny how Draco Malfoy didn't take the spotlight. XD.

HI blog!
wow it has been so long..i've been very busy with my studies and such that i can't find the time to write something here but now i think i have.
This is supposed to be a review but I'll make it a blog. I've read NIcholas Sparks' 'Nights in Rodanthe' and I just want to share my favorite parts in the book. It affects me in a way I've never known I could be affected. SO, please bear with me. =]

This is from one of the letters of Paul to Adrienne. These two people are the main characters. This isn't the whole letter but only a part of it.

"I've been thinking about you constantly since I left, wondering why the journey I'm on seemed to have led through you. I know my journey's not over yet, and that life is a winding path, but I can only hope it somehow circles back to the place I belong.
That's how I think of it now.  I belong with you."

*****
"It wasn't as if he simply rode the wave of emotions without making conscious decisions along the way. He had to have thought about what he was doing, he had to have considered the possibilities..."

"It was hard to feel sensual when you didn't feel attractive."

******
"A year is a long time, and there's no telling who either of us <b> will be then</b>. Look how much you've changed in the last six months. Can you honestly tell me that you'll feel the same way about all this a year from now?"
"Yes," he said, "I can."
"How can you be so sure?"
"Because," he said, "you're the only reason I'd bother to come back at all."

"She was mature enough to know something like this couldn't be real. This was the product of the storm, the wine, the fact that they were alone. It was any combination of a thousand things, she told herself, but it wasn't love."

And yet, she knew his feelings were real. And so she thought, were hers.

*****
"She said, 'All my life, I've wanted to be pretty for you.' And all I could think when she said it was that she always had been."

*****

"It doesn't seem fair."
She offered a wistful smile. "It isn't. The greater the love, the greater the tragedy when it's over. Those two elements always go together."
"Even for you and me?"
"For everyone," she said. "The best we can hope for in life is that it doesn't happen for a long, long time."

*****
ohmy, Paul will be away for a year. Leaving Adrienne behind although he'll be carrying the memories they had shared for the past few days, those memories he'll treasure forever =]

"Will you miss me?"
"Every single minute."

*****
Her time here had been dreamlike, and though dreams were pleasant, she reminded herself that they were just that and nothing more.

Although I knew I would keep it forever, I don't have any idea how much it would eventually come to mean to me.
*****
From Paul's letter:

"Rather, I'm going to look at the year ahead as a chance to get to know you better than I do. I've heard of people falling in love through letters, and though we're already there, it doesn't mean our love can't grow deeper, does it?... I love you now for what we've already shared, and I love you now in anticipation of all that's to come. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. I miss you already, but I'm sure in my heart that you'll be with me always. In the few days I spent with you, you became my dream."

******
'She realized that the message in Paul's note had been true. Though it wasn't as gratifying as seeing him or feeling his arms around her, the passion in his words somehow made the distance between them seem that much less.'

'She used to imagine the scenarios in vibrant detail, but lately she'd forced herself to stop. The regret that always followed the pleasure of those fantasies left her feeling empty, and she knew her time was better spent on those around her, who were still part of her life. She didn't want to feel the sorrow brought on by such dreams ever again. But sometimes, despite her best intentions, she simpy couldn't help it.'

******
From Paul's letters again:
"When I sleep, I dream of you, and when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart."

"There's so much I wish for these days, but most of all, I wish you were here. It's strange, but before I met you, I couldn't remember the last time that I cried. Now it seems that tears come easily to me . . . but you have a way of making my sorrows seem worthwhile, of explaining things in a way that lessens my ache. You are a treasure, a gift, and when we're together again, I intend to hold you until my arms are weak and I can do it no longer. My thoughts of you are sometimes the only things that keep me going."

******
"In the beggining, I guess I was afraid it wasn't real. I know we loved each other, but distance can do strange things to people, and before I was willing to tell you about it, I wanted to be certain that it would last."

*****

So here they are, some of my favorite parts. And I know you know WHY.

What baby are you?

 

Bet you forward this to everybody in your address book - I did! These are adorable and I'll bet they fit your b-day/personality to a T........... ......

 

 

 

Jan

------------ ---JANUARY BABY-------- --------- ---
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.
Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to
Recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.
Stubborn.

Feb

----------FEBRUARY BABY ------------ --------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
Freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
Aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
But rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
Inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Mar

------------ -----MARCH BABY ------------ --------
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and
Reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous
And sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up
Feelings. Observant and assesses others.

 
Apr

------------ ------APRIL BABY ------------ -------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
Sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
Work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
Memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
For information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
Make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
Others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
Travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.
 
May

------------ -----MAY BABY ------------ -----
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
Highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
Dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
Imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
Literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
Being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.
 
Jun

------------ JUNE BABY ------------ -
You've got the best personality and are an
Absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
New friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
And more than likely have an a very attractive
Partner. A wicked hottie. It is also more than likely
That you have a massive record collection. You
Have a great choice in films, and may one day
Become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
You've got the looks for it!!!
 
Jul

------------ ----JULY BABY ------------ --
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
Be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
Consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
Feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
Spazzy at times.
Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
And forms impressions carefully. Caring and
Loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
Sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
Through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
In studying. Loves to be with friends Always broods
About the past an d the old friends. Waits for
Friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
Unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
But takes long to recover.
 
Aug

------------ AUGUST BABY ------------ ---
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.
 
Sep

------------ SEPTEMBER BABY ------------ ---
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.
 
Oct

------------ ---OCTOBER BABY ------------ -------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.

Nov

------------ ---NOVEMBER BABY ------------ --------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind.

Dec

------------ ---DECEMBER BABY ------------ ---
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. ]